Wedding Photography !

I'm absolutely smitten with Heather and Jon's vintage style of wedding photography. In additional to digital, they somehow juggle a plethora of film cameras and homemade lenses. And get this.

I am just back from the wedding of my best friend Raghuvir to his lovely Bride Chhavi. Much to my dismay I was stuck capturing their lovely moments on my Blackberry Camera. It sucks !!! I am so inclined towards buying the I-Phone. I saw some of them at the wedding using it and it have a lovely wide lens and clicks the amazing moments. I only wish I was a much careful user and over and above it all it had some more nicer business phone like apps... : (( I am really sad using a blackberry at the moment. I am almost hating its site !!

I'm Famous and Waiting to be Rich now !!

There are 2 aspects of the human mind that I have come to know in the last 48 hrs with certain clarity. When they say – you will know when you sail in that boat – you will know. So I sailed in that boat to know them FOR SURE. So what happened in the last 48 hours ! A couple of days ago in one of my entries I told you about how I got photographed for Inc Magazine. It is out and here is the link for the same.

http://issuu.com/incindia/docs/inc_india-vol-2-issue-04-may-2011_1_

I’m featured on the 26th Page of the magazine – and 28th page of the PDF File. After the much dilly dallying over the make up and costume bit – the actual day of the shoot is nothing but a feeling of discomfort in my head. I am more of a behind the camera person off late – and all my thoughts about Oh, I would love to be centre of attention – have now a different perspective. So 2 things happened. Both Revolve around Human Emotions.

1. The Human Mind loves Flattery. And Questions who it is coming from and Why.
While most people close to be seem to be having their own shit to deal with – so there is yet to be a celebration of sorts. And I thought like in the movies I would declare a party and have 50 people flowing in with the booze and the attitude. That did not happen, is my reality. Some close one is in the hospital, so people are tending to her. Others are busy in their bullshit. A few others didn’t have time to read – even though I delivered it to their mailbox. Others that read got so caught up in work that they didn’t have time to send their much love.
And then there are the unexpected. Those that took their time off to let me know how proud they are to know a person like me, words of encouragement, some critical words to make sure I do well in the future. Some in plain awe of me, and some who half expected me to succeed- but are only surprised it was so early in life !!


2. The Human Mind shrivels up looking at no one around to share their happiness with.
I have been in a constant fight with my best friend for over last 7 months. To a point where the period of 10 days before the magazine came out we didn’t see each other, we didn’t talk to each other, but made each other’s life living hell messaging from 10 a.m. to 10 p.m. Much of what was exchanged was un-needed, and uncalled for... we didn’t mean half of those things we said... but we did. And that’s our reality. So when the magazine came out – the first reaction was Who the fuck to i share this happiness with ? So it didn’t matter that I have 10,000 other people who I knew would be happy for me. What mattered is that she is not around !!

Both of which is now resolved. She emailed, we met and we have hopefully conquered ! And the immediate family despite all the shit that is happening will now congregate at a celebratory dinner Friday night !!! LOVE in today’s world comes but in a delayed FASHION. Life is not BOLLYWOOD film after all. It is just the human mind that needs slight training !!!

Of course my thoughts on the magazine.
1. I love being famous
2. I love the fact that there were so many words of encouragement
3. I love the fact that I am happy I am in Inc. But I can’t wait to be on Forbes list now !
4. I love that I love being ahead in the race
5. I love that people around me cheer me up each time I tend to settle for no 2.

Do check out the link and let me know what you think !!! YIPPIEEEE !!

Fortune Tellers

Fortune Tellers...
In 2009 – I was told by sept 2009 I would be married ! Could u imagine me at 22 being married ? Ofcourse I would have loved to have a boy friend, but certainly not be married !! Then sometime in sept 2009 – a tarot reader told me beginning November is my 9th year and its going to be raising hell for me !! And it has come partially true... And then some other tarot reader told me .. im not gng to be friends with one of my best friends.. and true to the word – we r rocking so hard on a boat that turned over last night on a rough patch !!

Do you believe in fortune telling ??

In Tokyo – my friends and I went to this Shinto Shrine called the Sensouji temple – wherein we had to pick up these fortune sticks from a box full of them. Then we had to locate a box with the corresponsding number on it. When we open the drawer from the hundreds on there – we can pull out a piece of paper which would have our fortune written on it.. !!

Ranging from "Daikichi (excellent luck)" to "Daikyo (great misfortune)," and gives advice about specific subjects, such as heath, marriage, travel, business and study. In ancient times, Japanese often used lotteries to learn God's will on important matters of national politics and festivals, and the current style of Omikuji is said to have originated 900 years ago. Nowadays, most of people draw Omikuji just for fun.

The Fighting Spirit

So imagine diving straight into something and not knowing what you are getting into – and half way in you meet the demon ! Has that ever happened to you ? I got into a friendship – and i think straight from my heart – till the demon confronted me 5 months ago ! Yes – its been 5 months since i have been in deep waters struggling to keep my head above the ground. And last night I had the sinking feeling – which is not the first time I have felt this in 5 months – But I was stuck long enuf in the deep shit to realise this is not me !! When did I learn to Give up ?? People around me know to have the fighters spirit... !!

It’s when i saw these amazing China that I realised what i am going through – like this tea cup – inorder to know the entire demon – you just need to sip the entire tea to get to the bottom of everything !! So i did – and I found out – the foundations of this friendship is WEAK. And I have 2 ways out of here. I either get out of it completely – or fight for myself. I am a fighter – but my friend doesn’t want to be my friend anymore... and so I quit this friendship. Because in the end you will not remember the harsh words of an enemy , but remember the silences of a friend !!

Have you ever run away from a friendship ?

Winter Love !

So I got the much awaited call this morning. I knew it was coming. But i did not know it would be so fast. Winter Love I tell u !! My Best Friend – im not naming which one ( I have to keep this secret !) is getting married... I am ecstatic. We pretty much grew up together. We spent so much time together... and we discussed all the time - what our partners would be like. And my friend’s partner fits the description exactly. WORD FOR WORD
We all grow up making a list of the perfect partner. The last person I dated was completely opposite to that LIST .. no regrets – it helps you find out what you really want, really !! Which also makes me wonder – Does you partner/ spouse fit that bill ?? Now, not the one which you re-structured to accommodate him / her – i’m talking about the one you made when you first got to know what LOVE is... ! Or are you still trying to figure out what to put on the list ?? What do you think should be on this list anyway ??

Best Friends !

Everything looked different... Where there was an open ground with wild grass growing was now converted into a fine garden, with beautiful landscapes and a jogging track on the periphery. There were swings and slides for little children. I remember falling there endless times and scratching my knee. She had picked me up several times while I attempted my hand at riding a bicycle.... I drove past it.. I passed the golla walla kaa stall. When we were little, he wheeled a cart into our neighbourhood each day. When my mother said no for Golla, it was her mother that gave us Rs 1. She hid me behind her while I ate it peacefully.

When my mother scream at me for not doing my homework and made me stand outside our door, her mother took me in and fed me. We played all day along... post 4 o clock, Moksha and I ruled the world of Vishwabharti Society. Our friendship was the envy of many a girls of our society. We broke apart only to go home and sleep. We often ate dinner together.

She held my back and I looked after hers. We shared a kitchen set – held endless tea parties behind out building. We even climbed the wall and made it our home playing house-house.

And all that came to a screeching halt when my father said, “Darling, Say goodbye to Moksha..!” I was told we were going to visit her every now and then. I was also told that we would be great friends all along... We moved, our lives got busier. We were all but 12 years old then. Time flew by... but our paths didn’t cross that often. She pursued Arts while I set about in Commerce and then Our paths never crossed – but every 1st October, on her birthday I called to wish her. Each time we would promise that we would make a plan and meet. Then 12th November would come – and she would be one of the first few people to wish me... it’s a shame we live at a distance of 3 kms and yet life of Mumbai City makes it impossible to catch up.

But this 1st October was different. It is her birthday. I decided to swing by her place. It was almost mid-day. I wasn’t sure if I could run into her – but I bought her a box of her favourite chocolate and reached her house. I was lucky. I got her just 10 minutes before she was leaving for work. She was ecstatic... we both hugged. Looking at her so happy .. I had tears in my eyes.... !!!

Years of growing up together flashed in front of my eyes. It was a happy moment. It was a moment that she and I are going to remember for the rest of our lives.... Best Friends know no distances, Best friends stand the true test of time...Here’s wishing my very first best friend in the whole wide world a Very Happy Birthday !!

To Pankti... with Love !

Every memory remains
as the days pass quickly by
as I look upon the past
my heart just wants to cry

We were always together
through the good times and the bad
I try to keep a smile
but I cant fight the feeling sad

You making me laugh was addicting
and so was your smile
now everything's changing
and I'm stuck in denial

The person that has changed
at first I thought was you
but I realize now its me
but it's not I changed, but grew

Everyone will change
and everyone will grow
but I will always forever love you
and thatI hope you know

Guys got in the middle
and other factors too
I guess one thing that's changing
is that I'm now jealous of a few

I miss so many things
about the way it used to be
we both have made mistakes
not "just" you or not "just" me

I miss all of the good times
like when we'd talk all night long
or when we'd belt out the lyrics
to a good old Rihanna Song !

When we'd fall over laughing
and we wouldn't know why
all the hugs you gave me
Now all I'd do is cry

I miss my blond moments
and the things you would say
acting like loosers
day after day

I miss when we'd talk
for hours on end
but I think most of all
i just miss my best friend.